What is my purpose Lord?

What do I have to do.

To finish this life that I hate here,

And rest in heavenly peace with you.

Is it something I must share Lord?

Some words that I must say.

To help someone along Lord,

That cannont find their way.

A friend that I must offer

A sacrifice in love.

To get to your great kingdom

In the sky above.

Is it something I need to do Lord,

A lesson I’ve not learned

That’s keeping me from going

To the place for which my heart yearns.

I know I won’t be perfect,

At your feet I will humbly kneel.

A sinner that’s forgiven by grace

If that would be your will.

I’m not happy here on earth Lord.

No one understands.

My grandpa that died, he’s with you now,

And he was my best friend.

No one knows my hurt Lord.

No one knows why it’s so hard.

Me and my grandpa shared a sickness,

We both had problems with our hearts.

Mine is not that big yet,

And in that may lie my fault.

For my grandpa’s heart was so great,

His lessons learned his battles fought.

His purpose in life we questioned once,

About a year before he died.

He didn’t know what his was,

But gave me this advice.

“When you’ve fulfilled your purpose,

Only God will know.

It’ll be hard, but you have to live,

Even after I’m gone.

Someday after you’ve lived your life

As far as you can go

You may not know what it was all for,

But the Lord will call you home”.

I didn’t want to hear it,

But I knew that it was true,

And now I sit here praying

For my life to be through.

I want to go to heaven

And be with my best friend,

But til I finish my purpose on this earth,

I’m stuck here til the end.

I’m not really living,

And I just can’t die no matter how I wish I would.

When the day finally comes when I finish my purpose,

I’ll be out of here for good.

1-29-2010

T.L.